This post was harder to write than I thought it would be. I’ve probably started it five or six times. I wasn’t taking very good care of myself in the last couple of weeks so writing wasn’t working. I also had processed where I was and what I was doing in life. I’ve processed with a friend and have more clarity on what’s happening in my corner of the universe.
This rotation has helped me in more ways than I imagined going in. I’ve learned so much about myself as a person. I’ve learned about how I approach things professionally. I’ve learned that I can be viewed as someone with respected authority even though I’m still young.
Most importantly, I’ve learned that during this time I need to pay extra attention to my self care. This season I’m in in unlike anything I’ve done before in my life. This is the most time I’ve spent living out of a suitcase. I’m driving further than I ever have for work. This is easily the most self-directed season of my educational career. No one is holding my hand reminding me to get my projects done. (Don’t worry I’m getting them done on schedule!)
The first few weekends I went home and stayed in bed, but I’ve realized that doesn’t help me. I wasn’t getting things done at home that needed my attention. I’ve moved my grocery shopping day to a day with more motivation and energy to make sure that new, fresh food makes its way into my home. I’m doing more batch work. I’ve found this helps me the most. I do several things on my list at once when I have the most motivation to be productive. Like right now. I normally would be sleep, but I have the motivation to write so I’m taking advantage of it.
I’ve been reminded of the need for community. I’ve been more anxious recently, and having friends that I can reach out to who understand and support has been invaluable.
The irony is not lost on me that I’ve noticed I need more food to eat during the day. I forget that I’m more physically active right now walking around the hospital. I’ve started to pack snacks in with the food I meal prep for the week. That has been a great help!
Thankfully my sleep schedule is still good. I’m usually sleep between 10-11 pm and up by 6:30.
In terms of foodservice management. I feel confident to manage a kitchen. I’ve gotten real-world experience during my time at this facility. I’ve gotten to see the hire and fire process. I’ve lead team meetings and done group educations. I’ve audited cafe associates on the new process for delivering trays. I’m helping enter and analyze data regarding patient meal times and glucose levels for diabetic patients.
I keep saying I feel like I’m in limbo. It’s odd to me that people see me as authority. I don’t feel old enough. But I’m older than a few of the staff members…. It’s also strange to me that I’m going through training to start my career and not just get a job.
I did not think I would enjoy this rotation, I haven’t enjoyed the kitchens I worked in previously. This has definitely changed my opinion on foodservice. I am more open to this idea than I was originally. I look forward to what I’ll learn in my last three weeks.
After this I’m moving to inpatient eating disorders. A complete 180, but I’m excited for my first clinical experience. I’m also excited for more patient interaction. I have experience working with behavioral health and eating disorders so I have a good idea of what to expect and how to maintain boundaries. Boundaries are important.
I hope you’re doing well. I hope you’re taking care of yourself.
Today is the best day to change your life!
